Conversations.

Him: I just don't like you this way. 
Her: Me neither.

and yet she couldn't help inhaling that smoke. If only he understood how it helps her to let go of that messed up head, of the shitty things life has given her way, of the fact that he doesn't belong to her, of the things which did injustice to her life, of the things which are still not  right. But she smokes because one day, maybe.. just maybe, she'd have it all. Especially him.

Picture courtesy: @i_typewriter

Such complicated love..

Things would have been so much easier if love was as easy and simple as its spelling is. But well, it doesn't go that way. 

You know, I have always believed that love can happen not only once, but again and again. I think love has a certain degree of intensity. And everytime we love, we're at different degrees. We explore such feelings and intensity which we felt never before. Everytime we love, we reach some degree of love. At times, stronger, and at times, weaker. But the love is there. And it would still be called love. 

I know it sounds confusing and hard to understand. But recall the feelings of love, you've ever felt? And no, i am not taking about infatuation here.  

We all love not just once but many times in life. Some we forget, some we tend to hold on. And that's what i am talking about. If you're still holding on to your feelings for someone, who might or might not be present in your life, you sure can fall in love again.  Love doesn't ask for permission now does it? It just happens. In a moment. Suddenly. Without expectations. Even during worse of the times. 

And eventually, we can live and we do live by loving so many people at one time. Here, i am referring to family. But otherwise, i believe love could happen, at a time, with two different people.  And it doesn't apply that we cheat with out partners or spouse, no. Not at all. It just means you've that sacred feeling for someone. Or a few of them. Sounds funny, yeah? Sometimes it's just hard to put in words what exactly you feel. And trust me, words don't do justice. Not most of the times. I know the concept is complicated and difficult to understand and not digestible to most of us. But this is just my opinion and believe and i don't expect people to conform with me.

Anyways, call me stupid or crazy. I still believe love just happens. With two people. At the same time. 

But then, the way our society thinks and works? Reading all of this would only lead those minds to nowhere but cheating. Cheating on your spouse. Boyfriends/girlfriends. But i never said to cross the limits, did i? We can always love and draw some boundaries. Its such a sacred pure feeling. Why would you want to loose it? I believe in cherishing the memories. Small good memories. And we all should hold on to such moments. Forever.

p.s. I hope the post isn't too confusing. 

p.p.s. If it is, don't bother complaining. I just wrote what i wanted.

This picture isn't my property. I just got it from the internet. :)

Christmas and some memories..

My eyes yearn to see a lovely decorated christmas tree. Reminds me of the times when we used to travel. Christmas time is so fun in western side. Lots of shopping. Lots of love. [Chocolates too] and then, you get discounts on almost everything! And the lovely songs.

I remember once when we were UK, in a mall, this lady came to us with a tray of wine glasses and offered it to us. The samplig/testing for free. She was dressed as an elf, looked totally pretty. We didn’t try the drinks. But i wanted to. Not for the sake of drinking. But for the sake of sharing the happiness. Everyone was so joyous. Oh, and i got free chocolates that day. We roamed around and did some shopping. I like how the prices go down instead of going up (like they do in Pakistan during Eid lol). 

and now i miss my school. I remember how i bought a christmas gift for my Vice Principal from there. She was so touched and from that year on, she always invited me on Christmas party at her place. And i remember how i was the one who sang, Jingle bells in the class, because others didn’t know the lyrics well. LOL. And when i was a kid and in a different school, my christian friends used to give me greeting cards on every Eid. They were so sweet and thoughtful. I literally miss those days. Such cherishable memories.  

And seriously, why can’t we celebrate all the good occasions? If those christian friends could wish me on Eid then why can’t i wish them on their festivals? It’s just sharing the happiness and love after all. No ones asking you to share or sacrifice your beliefs. But i don’t know. People make these things a matter of life and death. Matter of strong faith and beliefs. But they don’t understand that if you get happy in someone’s happiness, you are not necessarily agreeing with what they believe. Your faith is a matter between you and your God. For once if we just think of the greater good, and act human with all the humans, how cool would that be, right? 

Well. On that note, Merry Christmas to all my friends who are celebrating the happiness and love.:) xx 

p.s. This was posted on my tumblr and facebook on the christmas day. So i thought to add it on the blog too.

p.p.s. Here is the link to my tumblr : sadiyazhar.tumblr.com

Smile..

So i advice something to a friend today. A good friend who is going through tough times. I liked what i ended up writing. So i thought i should share. :)

"Everyone of us face issues. Sadness is a part of life. Well, i hope you cope up with it pretty soon. Some emotions are just too strong. Overwhelming. And the one who suffers through it, only knows how it feels. But well, i hope you get out of it soon. And don't let sadness control you. its just a part of you, your life. Don't let it reflect your image, because that's not you. You're more than that. And there's a huge mountain of emotions. Don't coat it with the sadness. Let it out."

And well, Smile.. because it can work wonders! :)